menghitung hari....

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face


You told me how proud you were, but I walked away


If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh





I would hold you in my arms,I would take the pain away


Thank you for all you've done,forgive all your mistakes


There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again


Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there





Oh,


I'm sorry for blaming you


For everything I just couldn't do


And I've hurt myself by hurting you





Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit


Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss


And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh





Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?


Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?


There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance


To look into your eyes and see you looking back





Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you


For everything I just couldn't do


And I've hurt myself,





ohIf I had just one more day


I would tell you how much that I've missed you


Since you've been away


Oh, it's dangerous


It's so out of line


To try and turn back time





I'm sorry for blaming you


For everything I just couldn't do


And I've hurt myself


By hurting you





hurt by christina aguilera..





mybe diz song la sesuai tuk aq yg dlm kesedihan..sedey ke?? hahaha mcm pelik..mcm sengal..ntah la...aq da pasrah nih...menghitung hari je la...utk pe? utk di lukakan dan terluka..dan ter..ter.. la..kasihan itu anak...wawawa...sesungguhnya hanya aq yg mampu memahaminya..walaupun ada org len yg sibuk dan memahaminya gak...huhu..aq da nak exam..hoho takut..kalu korg nk tau keliling aq kat sini study..aq sorg je sibuk ngn menda nih...tp meja sana aq tgk rancak berborak...mcm aq sorg je buka laptop hehehe xksh la...aq std pun blm leh masuk lg...blur la..kpala pun tgh ting tong nih..org tgh dmam...huhu sedey2...nk xm..mslh byk..xpk pun kdg2 tgh std meleleh...hadoiyai..pelik la...tertekan sgt ke aq nih smpai jd cm nih..ish! kacau btl la...tp taper at least ada la si dia yg sntiasa disisi aku...


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kebahagiaan atas penderitaan...

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